They say: “People don’t decide their futures. They decide their habits, and their habits decide their futures.”
And let me tell you — the voices in my head did not want to hear that.
Because when I’m lying awake at 2 a.m. in a cold sweat, spiraling about money, storage units, motherhood, creativity, and the fear of being forgotten… those voices are loud. They whisper:
👉 “You’re stuck here forever.”
👉 “Your spark is gone.”
👉 “You’ll never make a living creatively again.”
But here’s what I’ve learned: my future isn’t decided in those midnight spirals.
It’s decided in my habits.
Rock Bottom Reality
When my life blew up 2.5 years ago — betrayal, bankruptcy, divorce, and being left to provide for my sons alone — I wasn’t mapping out a five-year plan. I was in survival mode.
But what I could do was build one habit.
One hour of cardio on my bike, every damn day.
It wasn’t glamorous. It wasn’t Instagram-worthy. But it saved me. That habit helped me lose over 40 kilos, yes — but more importantly, it gave me proof I wasn’t dead yet. It reminded me that even in ruins, I could move forward.
That one habit decided my future.
The Habits I Let Slip
This past summer, I pressed pause on the creative hustle and worked in elderly care. And it grounded me. Walking the halls. Folding sheets. Serving meals. Holding hands. Listening to stories at the end of life. It cracked my heart open in ways I didn’t expect.
But in caring for others, I stopped caring for myself.
💔 My cardio habit disappeared.
💔 My creative practice slipped away.
💔 My spark dimmed into exhaustion.
And while my body broke down in the hallways, I was also dragging another kind of weight — my storage units. Heavy crates from my selfie museums. Inflatable installations. Rainbow props. A past life I’ve been clinging to, even though it drains me every time I open the door.
It’s physical weight. Emotional weight. A filter I don’t want on my future anymore.
That’s when it hit me: even “accidental habits” are deciding my future. And the ones I was living this summer? They weren’t building the life I want. They were building the life I fear.
Habits Are Filters
The LYKO collab didn’t just fall into my lap. I rebuilt my business with tiny habits: sending one more pitch, creating one more design, showing up again even after bankruptcy.
Losing 40 kilos wasn’t luck. It was daily sweat.
Every transformation in my life has been built on habits. And every spiral has been fueled by lost ones.
Habits are filters.
They color everything.
Skip cardio long enough, and exhaustion becomes your future.
Keep saying yes to toxic cycles, and trauma bonds become your future.
Create daily, and momentum becomes your future.
Whether you choose them consciously or not, your habits will choose your future for you.
Small Wins > All or Nothing
I’ve always been “all or nothing.” Hyper-focus is my superpower. It’s how I built entire museums, ran collaborations, and manifested massive projects. But it’s also how I crash, burn out, and lose the very habits that save me.
The truth is: the future isn’t built in grand leaps. It’s built in the small wins you repeat daily.
✨ Ten minutes of cardio.
✨ Writing one messy paragraph.
✨ Drinking water before coffee.
✨ Saying no to one toxic invitation.
They don’t feel sexy in the moment. No one claps for your glass of water. But five years from now, that habit will show up in your reflection.
The Crossroads
Right now, I’m standing at a crossroads.
On one side: elderly care. Steady paychecks. Security. Lessons in humanity. But also exhaustion, aching joints, blistered feet, and a future I don’t want to live forever.
On the other side: my spark. My creativity. My Milajki universe. Designing, writing, storytelling, creating with AI. The life that makes me feel alive — but also uncertain, risky, demanding courage all over again.
And here’s the kicker: whichever future I choose won’t be decided in one dramatic leap.
It will be decided in my habits.
If I keep skipping cardio, ignoring creativity, and dragging the past in storage units, that future builds itself.
If I reclaim my routines, phase out exhaustion, and phase in habits that make me feel alive — that future builds itself too.
Step by step.
Habit by habit.
That’s how I phase out survival and phase in freedom.
Mic Drop
So here’s my reminder to you (and me):
👉 You don’t decide your future in one big moment.
👉 You decide it in the small, daily habits you repeat.
If you don’t pick them consciously, they’ll pick you.
So today, choose one habit that loves you back.
Choose one habit that brings you alive.
Choose one habit that builds the future you deserve.
Because the voices in your head? They don’t decide your future.
Your habits do.
✨ As Always Extra RainbOH!w Sparkles & Good Vibes OH!nly ✨🦄💦🌈
/ Angelina Mi Lajki
